The Last Evening

Your eyes were moist with tears 

As you headed off to bed

You said you wanted to read 

And I said then there’s an errand I

Can run

You wanted me to stay but I 

did not understand how much

You thought I was returning to her

But I was not

Our deal was Wednesday nights and 

Thursday for dinner, so I thought it OK 

To leave

I was tired and could not read the signs

Your eyes imploring, filled with tears

My mind so drained and tired

From my own depression of the day

Too hard to share with you

My fear that failure is imminent

Too much to burden you that night

When you were filled with angst

That in my state I could not read

And regret that to this day

You were right to bid me go and 

set me on this path 

To make the break you begged me to

And find relief at the end

I found it now

Though it hurts to be alone

Without your touch, your laugh

Your spirit to behold

I keep your spirit, your eyes 

and your smile inside me 

They fill my soul